Why am I blogging? I tried this once before and failed miserably. Hopefully, this time will be different. My main purpose is to try and become a better version of myself. I tend to be shy, closed off, stuck up at times, worried what people think of me and not accepting to change. I am an only child, and those seem to be the personally traits everyone tells me.
So--lets break them :)
I need an outlet, these past 8 months to a year have been rough. Lets be honest, it's been crap besides some happy moments. Here's a quick overview (more will come later).
-Julio started grad school at Purdue. (ugh..not my first choice. It's in the middle of corn fields.) Irvine, Ca was calling my name, a few days were spent debating, tears shed and sunny Cali was a distant memory.
-Job searching---Now it was my time to try and find a job near Purdue, while Julio was already hard at work. It took me almost 6 MONTHS to find a good paying job. WTH!! It was exhausting and defeating.
-The Move---do I really need to explain? Moving just sucks. plain and simple.
-My new Job---I could tell from the first week this wasn't where I should be. What I got hired to do, was nothing close to what my job actually was. It did pay well but was not the type of environment I should be working in.
-Julio's dad---The saddest, hardest part of this whole time. I'm not really sure how we all got through it. The worst two weeks of my life. I do not wish that upon anyone. I just wish he was here.
-Bun in the oven---We are pregnant!!! My job is borderline harassing me because of it. yay!!
- Starting a new Job---Well it's just stressful and in Publishing/Distribution. Nothing medical here, lol
-Missing Home---I miss Elkhart, Goshen, Bristol and Middlebury like crazy. I wish I was up there now. I miss my old work, our friends, our family, my house, the comfort of knowing people and knowing where everything is at. Who would have guessed? The girl who wanted to be away from Bristol is now overwhelming wanting to be back. Which i'm putting some responsibility on the pregnancy. I am pretty emotional now.
So, in my eyes Lebanon and Indy haven't been very welcoming to Julio and I since this transition and now I'm counting down the days until we are back up there. And he has another year to go :( This is why I need an outlet to make me count my blessings, to get me through the hard days whether it be pregnancy or with Julio's dad. There has to be some countability. Right??
jrn